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I stuff our memories
Into an empty jar
Shelve it far in the back
Hope you will fade to black
But I hear you whisper
Sour nothings to me
Like a melody
I wished it stop repeating in my head
When I think of you
You keep walking down that aisle
But your wedding ring is already tarnished
The damage is done.

The day my heart went numb
Is when mother cried
You kept saying she is fine.
But I ran to her otherwise.
You were once a dream
That I wished came true
Watch me graduate,
Get married, and
Have a kid or two.
But once you stepped out
You became a shadow
I can barely make out.
A tragic memory.
How can I be happy
And have all this glory
While my mind feels useless
And on its knees.
I tried to stay away from online’s
But it Buzzfeeds me with curiousity
And surrender.  
I stopped calling my mom
Because I was busy screwing with Tumblr
Tumble. Tumble. Tumble down the rabbit hole
Of reblogs.
My hands fondle with the keyboards,
Ignoring my friend’s hand
To hold hers.
I was stuck in this digital affair
Trying to find a short cut without
Getting a virus.
Snapchatting how pretty I am
Not knowing how far away I am with
Getting defensive about one missed call
Questioning why grades are down in hell
Blaming myself for Facebooking my life on feeds.
Instagram can’t filter this mess
This stress
I should get better.
I wanted to be Sakura.
Turn myself into a Japanese cartoon.
Save the world from
Tarot cards that cast
Water, fire, earth, wind.
My hero.
I wished I was Sakura.

I wanted to be Sakura.
Going through middle school,
I was lost, wanted friends and nothing more.
Staying home,
I wanted to say “I love you” to mom but
Didn’t know how.
Sakura didn’t have trouble at school nor
At home.
I wish I was Sakura.

I wanted to be Sakura.
So naïve but brave.
She lived in an animated world with
Magic and talking chibi lions.
Sakura saved her Tokyo with her friends
And awakened magical powers.
God, I wanted to be like Sakura.  

I wanted to be Sakura.
My father was barely around.
I watched him drive away to work
Slept as he came home tired.
At Sakura’s dad smiled at her
When he came back from his job.
I wished I was Sakura.

I wished I was Sakura.
But my mom needs me.
Sakura’s mom died
After she was born.
My mom still needs love.
I am the only one who will make her smile
With magic.
That moment I was Sakura.
Isn't my Amethyst shining?
My gem displays such
Potential of what I can do.
The power to shape-shift as anyone
I want. The possibility of
What can be.
Isn't that exciting?

But you want me to be a
Pearl and garnet. Now.
You demand me to be that warrior everyone wants, a Garnet.
And be that elegant maiden everyone expects, a Pearl.
It's so easy
To say that I need to push myself
To become that person.
But to what direction?
I am scared to leave the person I barely know
For the person I can't be?

I didn't ask for this
No matter how I want to change
I didn't ask to be this way
No matter how I asked God to fix me
I'm just that character
Who wants to sleep, eat,
And play all day.

I didn't ask to be made.
So funny but average.
Supports the protagonist
And make them the star
While I tarnish like the rest
Of used gems.
A lazy, forgotten character.

I really want to scream,
Declare that I don't care!
I don't care anymore!
But I do
I want to whip out anything
That reminds me how much I hate myself.

I don't know how.
I never tell myself how to be me
How to be Amethyst.

I may not be the gem you want me to be.

I'll yawn as usual, but
Find a way to reach out to me
Be finally happy with my skin.
These scars on my gem heart
Will be my tattoo of how far I've come.
It will beat in happiness,
Singing how grateful to live
By then, I'll be the proudest gem
Because my Amethyst is shining brighter.
  • Listening to: BoA, Crystal Kay, and VE "Universe"
I got tagged by MaryKosmosVer2


1. You must post the rules.
2. Each person must post 5 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and create five new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged them. [You could post an icon.]
6. No tag backs
7. No stuff in the tagging section about, "You're tagged if you're reading this." You legitimately have to tag 10 people. 

About Me:
- I'm majoring in Creative Writing 
- I currently attend Southern Oregon University 
- Recently, I went back to (slightly) obsess over Yu-Gi-Oh DM
- But my favorite anime and manga is still Cardcaptor Sakura 
- My favorite music group is U-Kiss 


Q. What's your favorite anime character? (If you don't have one, just name a specific cartoon character or such.)

A. Wow, that's hard. I would say either Yami Yugi/Atem from YGO DM or Sakura from Cardcaptors

Q. If you heard of Super Smash Bros. Brawl Four, which characters are you looking forward too?

A. I look forward for the return of Sonic the Hedgehog and Pikachu. 

Q. What was the last thing you copied?

A. As in copied from a printer? Copied from the computer? ????

Q. What is your favorite Vocaloid? (If you don't have one, just name a specific singer you like.)

A. I don't have any, but I recently really like Priscilla Ahn's music. 

Q. What is your gallery mainly about?

A. Various attempts in digital art, photography, and literature.

MaryKosmosVer2 's Questions:

Q. Who are some of your favorite voice actors/actresses and why? 
A: Dan Green (he brought Yugi and the Pharaoh to life), Queen Latifah (I have so much respect for her and her craft), and Jackie Chan (Because I grew up watching Rush Hour and Jackie Chan Adventures, he, in a way, inspires me to do my best <--cheesy...) 

Q. If you could induct anybody for the Shonen Academy Hall of Fame, who would you pick and why? 
A: I would pick Pharaoh Atem/Yami Yugi because he is amazing as a leader and duelist. 

Q. Do you think it's wrong for male characters to be moé and/or feminine? 
A: Nope. 

Q. What are your favorite video game franchises and why? 
A: Sonic the Hedgehog because he has fun games to play and his character is always refreshing. 

Q. Any advice would you like to give to the Shonen Academy? (If not, any shoutouts would you like say?) 
A: A shoutout to everyone at Shonen Academy-- keep doing your best!  

My (4everkissme) Questions:

  1. If you could describe yourself as a dessert, what kind of sweet would you be?
  2. Finish this sentence: I came to this city to play a card game on ______________! (Brownie Points if you actually this reference)
  3. Would you rather be a famous YouTuber or Viner for one night? Why?
  4. May I have this imaginary dance? 
  5. Can you do a fun drawing of my twin sisters, Raven and Pyro (if you can't draw, then maybe your first impression of them)?   

I tag: 
- torakun14 
- guitarknight36 
- BKrootz 
- XxKawaiiDreamxX 
- DragonBladerX  
- JoUzumakiWeasley 
- deiBBF4LIFE 
- SnowNinja123 
- Fille-de-Mer 
- PersiaYukitsuki 


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Asela Lee Kemper
Artist | Student | Literature
United States
I'm an aspiring lyricist/poet/writer who dreams of traveling to Korea someday.
I love U-Kiss, uBEAT, Michael Jackson, TLC, music of many genres (especially old school music!), art, entertainment and Asian cultures (mostly Korean and Japanese).

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MouHitoriNoBoku Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for faving my artwork~
4everkissme Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2015  Student Writer
No prob! Big fan of your work.
MaryKosmosVer2 Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2015  Student Artist
Hi, Asela! It's been a while, since we talked and I was just wondering. Would you like to participate in my secret project? If you are interested, then please send me a Note with your name on it. If not, it's okay. I understand... ^^
4everkissme Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2015  Student Writer
Hey Eleanor! I wish I could participate in your project, but I got too much going on at school with homework, finals and scholarships coming real soon. Thank you for asking though! 
MaryKosmosVer2 Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2015  Student Artist
Okay. I understand! When you do change your mind though, just let me know... ^^
4everkissme Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2015  Student Writer
MouHitoriNoBoku Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch C:
4everkissme Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2015  Student Writer
You're welcome!
Yamigirl21 Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2014
Thanks for the fav! :D
4everkissme Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2015  Student Writer
You're welcome! ^^
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